stageFRIGHT…. so insecure. ….OBVIOUSly

Being aware ... being awake, Miscellaneous

i have started 3 different videos… trying to introduce myself and explain who and why i think i am Cubiclegirl70…… I know this is important if I am  trying  to connect and share me with you…..

sooooo, get this . I look fine, if there is no closeup, and i am not really interested in close-ups. never was actually, i never even ever carried a compact… or wore lipstick….details were never my thing… the overall effect is what i looked for… like in design or whatever… i got into messy very easily.. never wore a heel again after Maude F came out with flats..namedropping with maude… and u have to be old enough too!!

Sooo- staring into a photo recorder and spilling my beans while i am actually looking at myself on the screen… is scaring the stuff right out of me.. too much face for me i think…Elder- face… LOOKING THAT CLOSE AT ELDER FACE IS NOT AS MUCH FUN AS LOOKING….in fact it takes the words right out of my mouth.. and i have to hit the end button… cause i don’t want to be a bore.. and i recognize that my uh—uh—uh kind of talking can get a little wearing. I just try to wing it!

I can write the truth, a bit easier as i have nothing “to fear.. except… fear….”but  on the other side, i will be looking directly into the pit of insecurity and vanity.. that is apparently silencing my videos!!

please share with other humans that u think want to connect… mainly with our SELF..

 

2 thoughts on “stageFRIGHT…. so insecure. ….OBVIOUSly

  1. No stage fright in your videos. Seeing you is like being there with you while you speak your mind. Writing can give more explicit content, but watching your videos every so often gives me something to look forward to. (Oops – bad use of a preposition)

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