Crazy Cat woman,,,,.who me?

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how did this occur??? don’t u wonder sometimes??? just now the hell… did I, me become a CRAZYYY CAT WOMAN?

Unfortunately i feel a bit speechless, which does not exactly lend itself to typing….lol .
I have a Catamily… that is who i live with… and they are my life.  we LIVE TOGETHER! well there is Blisster, Hallelujah, Loonie, Helen, and we were recently blessed with Kiddo and Dawg….. counting up.. i get 6…and they are just the ones with keys to the door. On my front porch i have… clare and clare ( they looked alike and came from the same litter) and Sambo(a) who is clare’s offspring and whom i must have fixed very very soon… or ….we know the ending to that story..

Also I know all of the cats who live in this building… there are many,  and many people who are constantly unhappy that there are so many cats in this building. I don’t like bumping into them (figuratively) cuz they think of me as a CRAZY CAT LADY… which seems to me a bit bazaar… However.. I seem to fit the resume here… i have the qualifications… right? just fostered a litter of 6,, feed gosh knows how many daily.. and sleep with 6 if  I get lucky. Last night they all showed up…. they were getting some blue vibrations from me… all of them  appeared  and  just hung out… watching me read.. coming up for a touch. so sweet.

I talk to them personally of course, and realize that I got that training from playing with dolls and giving them voice too. sometimes i get to sharpen those skills by playing Barbie with my youngest granddaughter … however, these Felines  are real creatures, who are not in a human body like me… expressing every feeling that i have….and i might add give me a constant source of Love.. if i am aware enough and centered enough to receive it…  This is sort of a confessional of some sort… and i am just going to PUSH the Publish button… what the heck!!!!



about remembering the emperors new clothes… that he never had right?

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The emperor was naked!!! but everyone told him that his clothes were nice… why? i absolutely go MENTALLY ILL when there are untruths being thrown around the conversation…. MY gosh,  even if you are being polite….. and in your viewpoint, protecting me(or someone) from a fact that might cause a wowch!   untrue is untrue and it is commonly called lying….and even worse then just lying… once something unauthentic goes into the recipe…. it isn’t  tasty  anymore… it doesn’t

I suggest that lying negates all and everything that is being said…so don’t talk and use up breath  just  binge on t.v. why waste words that mean nada. who cares about someone else’s delusions.

Authenticity is the key here… to learn who we are and to allow other existing forms (people) and other existing forms of energy ,even if they are wearing animal clothes,  to thrive truly..and enjoy their time on this planet…and not wondering who and what to believe!!!

I can, not like what you think… and you can disagree with  me… we don’t have to rise up out of our seats, huffing and puffing ,feeling belittled (imagined usually) if this scene is not familiar to you….  you are pretty extraordinary …. EXTRAORDINARY is what we all can be if we authenticate, rethink, recreate ourselves daily.

Presence to Presence! hola!!!


MAD AT???? sounds soo dated to me…right?

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remember when it was/is common and ordinary to say “oh… bobby… i’m mad at him”. there is no real bobby and i am just hypothesizing, howevah!!! I would be as wealthy as the former ellen lansburgh, now identifying her body as the Cube,  if i could be paid   just coins for saying that through out my life..

MAD at!!! it sounds hilarious to me at this juncture of my existence… that anyone in any kind of a mind -state would opt in for MAD-at…we leave the moment, we feel awful, go into inner dialogue and outer dialogue that is boring and unproductive and sucks Joy right out of the recipe for contentment that we are so intending for.( i hope).

i am starting a movement here… Eliminate MAD at– choose Disagree.  or Not on the same page or (maybe i am so new at this ) !!! there must be many more options… don’t waste time being angry at something that  someone else  did, because they wanted too. HURT or Disappointed.. go there, learn in the moment what that other person was thinking or not thinking by their behavior! not by any other BS that we tend to visit upon others and assuming that we have a clue as to what is in their mind chatter. WE DO NOT. we assume and attribute to others… which would be fine if we are very comedic and are making ourselves grin…

just thinking…. this was inspired on Fb by a friends post as to whether she should be mad?  So KB thanks



working and working well (enough) ALIVEly

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wow   … yesterday was the day!!  i turned 70 years old!! amazing just amazing… my parts are working well, no replacements yet… of course, i did not come with any guarantees.. it doesn’t work that way with human bodies… unlike refrigerators, that u must insure after 3 years!! wow  can’t people do better than that?

I am scanning my brain for a point… ( well said, if i have to say so myself)…lol

Life !! Energy!… sort of the same.. I am proposing that we enter the conversation of presence.. with each other … with ourself most importantly. I don’t want to miss any of the Joy anymore.. I want to be here NOW.. thank you Ram Dass for that hint so many years ago…( i think i will rebuy that book).

I was in India in the middle 1990’s and i was told that my Teacher only had one wish for me… and that was to enJoy my life… SIMPLE… right? “yea”  except that it has taken me this many years to GET IT. Common human behavior seems to get in the way most of the time…

HERE… the here and now.. is the ONLY place that this can happen… so we must reteach ourselves… we cannot get old and stale with what we think… so rethink.. maybe yesterday i had an issue to think through… maybe today i am fresh and new and vitally alive! that is the benefit of growth and change and commitment to INJOYING our lives…

While we are here let’s be HERE.. right here using our minds, not being used by them.. after all, a mind needs a captain or it just floats wherever it wants. I have many stories that will make you laugh but cringe and i know that you could do the same for me,,

let’s be amazingly alive!