rainy day thoughts…. turned off the noise and i hear …

Being aware ... being awake, Miscellaneous

the rain… and the thunder… and sometimes i think an overhead airplane is thunder… and it is a little spooky i think… because I usually have the television on listening to my intimate pals at CNN or I listen to the wisdom of my Teacher..I have all of recorded messages through the years… Each one fill me with wisdom and energy or I should say refill me if necessary…. and I need that knowledge daily…. and I made myself turn the NOISE off…
there is a buzz to the silence… i hear the tapping of this keyboard as if it was loud!! lol crazy… right??? This is an esoteric thought…. but… isn’t this whole “gig” we do here on earth a pretty amazing ride??? I am this Cubiclegirl70 at the moment…. just creating her to be the energy i enjoy– ( I am the Energy, of course)… it is fun to be in her person… she is cool… relevant, and pretty funny… ( i do thank God for that)
However, as Ellen Lansburgh
Sometimes… I take it so seriously.. and for the most part that is a buzzkill!

and FYI  if you care.. Elders begin at 70… and you can be a baby elder til you are about 72 1/2 ???? then toddler elder then … you can imagine… however elder keeps going .. until you no longer need to be defined by your age … and your body  has passed..

I know!!! SUPER ELDER!!!!

btw please reply if u have any thoughts on the subject..

CELLphone living ….and panicking elders who are present… or will be presentlyish..


Oh my gosh …. i was in the aldila shop and i couldn’t find my phone…… i mean like i could not find it! I was whipping thru my trusted friend and hand-bag, that is one and the same… i never thought of naming it but now i feel like i was amiss. I have been carrying her for 19 years now,she goeth where i goeth. reliably during the day . I am definitely change the bag at night kind of person. BTW… however nights have been come pretty rarish..as i raise before the dawn a few times and for real in the 5 clocks.

And nowish out of the blue , inevitably someone notices her (my bag) for one reason or another…. impressed with her age i think.comments on the age of my bag.,, many people are starting to ask “how old is your bag”???? that makes me laugh at loud just thinking about it ….. I am not the “type” of person who changes their handbag… whatever type that is… of course, However… I could change that if I want to… and that is so thrilling.
The thrilling part is that I can create this here Elder (me) to be exactly what i want from scratch…. It is remarkable to me….I feel like all of us on this planet are pioneering age in a new way…. Of course, one aspect of age is from quantity of years alone like our expected life-spans have increased  … then there is the physical evolution that is always going on  ( and you are what you are here) and here we are addressing the body and it’s own life span, … and the other aspect, which i find much more intriguing is the awareness factor that so many humans are embodying for themselves… seems they are being born with the advantage of many voices and informations validating their feelings… and that changes the way we appreciate time… right?? Because… we can choose to be HERE NOW …Personally that was not my experience as was growing… because juxtaposed against authority i felt out of line, and then thought i had no idea and i was dead WRONG…and looked to others to tell me what i thought, who i liked, what i desired … phew

Depending on what tense you are thinking in… really defines whether you are present or not… so, that is a rule…. if that is a rule and you are good at games, what a great tool.. TENSING is . Cause, to be present… one is not really allowed to be in their plans… up the road… or Fear of the Future…. ahhhh my stomach hurts when i just write about it.Not allowed to worry… worry is not in the now. EVER.. we may be fearful in the present… but wasting our precious time worrying about the unknown is mentally ill. I think if one does it a lot of this all of the  time and doesn’t want to change that….. that person needs . some  guidance and straightening out too. . lol AMERICAN mental illness..

You might have to discover an agenda before you can drop it…. I like to refer to them as operating systems VERY IMPORTANT here… and if your thoughts are not  fresh in the moment … perhaps one likes to rehash a conversation… or go over  silly energetic lila that seems to happen in human to human relationship.- a lila is a TO_DO of sorts…. maybe what you have figured out…. about yourself..mulling, mulling, mulling,. one usually goes soaring  into the next level when there are more and more lila lessons…. live and learn.. that goes back a long way..

So I acted cool for me- on the outside…. but  inside went from zero to panic…. “I LOST MY PHONE” ! .. iI will put this panic operating system at the top of the list so i can be more appropriate… like it is not a wild fire… or saracen attack ,but  it is a new – fangled, high tech life out here…. wow…and it is providing the connection we seem to crave and need…

that is all i have here…

anyway it is a great phone because it was where i left it.

about… SCARY…news and touching on being an ELDER

Being aware ... being awake

when did going to the movies or the mall  or almost anywhere… become a test of courage?  if u are old enough to listen to the news, or have a computer, any number of ears, can read and so on…. even overhear others concern…..you just might pick up the vibe is fearrrrrrr!

crazy has upped their game in this world…..in the place of just killing yourself cause you want to…. and i think even if it is against a law…. man , that is a personal decision. so if and when i want to….  i will.  Life is to be enjoyed and shouldn’t have to be a grueling, endless despairfest… However, deciding to kill yourself after you  have shot up a church,theatre,neighborhood, anywhere!!!  eliminating others and breaking many hearts  That is for one thing, NOT FAIR to the rest of us…and the vibration it sends wafting .

Never before in my life have i  EVER entertained thoughts that someone could be BEHEADED… INSANE……new low from the meanies out there.

Making lemonade here,, would entail. ..for one thing, rethinking your value of time and life…making a concerted effort to ENJOY yourself… actively aware of what you are creating with your thoughts and manifesting….in your life… ( studying enjoyment and feelings would be more valuable then many of the subjects in school…) Presence and Awareness…101 thru ever.. cause we should “GROW TIL WE GO!!!!”,,, i made that up..lol

Fear is a killjoy fear is killjoy fear is killjoy – new chant.

Being in a certain age group… certainly casts your lot as to what will be experienced… in your lifetime…. i am thinking the world is already warm enough., I really like knowing the polar bears have enough surface to party on, everyone keeps their head unless they don’t want to,

I am naming this group ELDER – lots of things happen… physically and mentally… saying goodbye to some body stuff… losing hair, growing dark hairs at lightening speeds, etcetcetcetcetc…. no need to go there now…But as an Elder I want to say SCARY SUCKS...